A New Heart

For those of you who check on how I am doing based on my poetry, etc….

Since last Wednesday, I have been experiencing a wonderful healing in my life. Over the weekend, some of my most pervasive fears were put to rest. I found out people love me for me, not for whether my family is society’s idea of perfect, whether I have problems, or whether I handle everything the way someone thinks it should be. I don’t know what the future holds, or if those things will change. But one thing I do know is this: When I love God with all my heart and allow the Almighty to love me back in the same way, my awareness of that love is with me always. The bitterness in me is dying, and the desire to want to love everyone in the most platonic but rich way is being born in me. This is the born-again moment, moment by moment in my life. This is how I know that it is not the experiences of my life that matter, but how I meet them, and with what part of myself I give service to them.

 

I am grateful for those who agree with me, for those who disagree with me, and for everyone whose lives (thank God) are too busy to be concerned about my rights or wrongs. That the big wheel keeps turning is assured, as too is the comfort in knowing that God holds me gently in the palm of His hand.

25 Things to Be Grateful For

1. My daughter made a wonderful dinner.

2. My son helped with clean-up.

3. They took out the trashes.

4. My husband and the kids picked up stuff at the store.

5. I can lovingly give myself all the time I need to heal. I am a slave to no one in that regard.

6. The sun is shining.

7. I talked to a good friend today.

8. My cold/allergy symptoms are improving.

9. I did some creative work with colors and writings that helped me express my emotions and thoughts.

10. I see a light by which if I am able to lay a foundation for myself in what God is giving me, I will have a more peace-filled, spiritually authentic way of living, thinking, processing, being, and doing.

11. I see how some of the things I long to do in service may come out of the richness of this foundation and be done, not as avoidance of the issues in my life, but as fulfillment of a love because I am moving into the strength of peace already.

12. Even at my weakest states I can choose the things of life and living.

13. I have food in my house. I can shop online and pick up other necessities.

14. I can take every thought captive, even the ones that I have gotten used to thinking of as being helpful — the “pre-planner and fixer thoughts,” and place them lovingly behind the doors of God’s workings.

15. I can recognize at an earlier point when these types of thoughts are coming my way, and can start the process earlier.

16. I see this as a process of healthy detachment practice that I can experience with real-life situations without being unkind or uncaring.

17. I have lovely bracelet and necklace reminders from one of my beautiful friends that reminds me of her deep love and care for me.

18. I get to do what I love, which is to share music.

19. I get to be paid for the gift of this wonderful, Universal love-language sharing.

20. I can and do forgive myself for not having worked through my frustrations with others sooner.

21. Even as I forgive myself, I try to work toward a more all-encompassing way of loving.

22. I am thankful for the nice breeze coming in through the front door.

23. I am grateful for the sounds of the wood-chime and the distant train whistle.

24. I’m happy about the way I felt so sleepy after dinner and was able to nap.

25. Thank you, God, for pen and plenty of paper.

The +10 Mortal Combat Pelvic Girdle

To take wing

I must detach from this leaf

I will never feel the wind in my hair

if I don’t lift off

(And it has been a Miracle)

The big-girl panties —

Forget that

I am wearing the +10 Mortal Combat Pelvic Girdle

There is nothing else that God needs to do

to prove to me that

I AM LOVED!

And now that I know

I completely release All into God’s hands

and away from my focus

I embrace the middle way

The true authentic Loved Ones

are waiting in the wings to be unleashed

in Love

into my Life

I take and accept my Wholeness

Finally

The Bigger steps will be directed

by God in perfect timing

Only Trust and Love

When the World’s Upside Down

 

Where do you go

when the world’s upside down

when your very best friends

look upon you and frown

Who do you seek

when the going gets blue

who can you trust

who will always be true

Jesus is Who

He’s the one that makes new

He’ll never desert you

Sitting righteous in pew

He’ll always love hue

though your virtues are few

He’ll be your glory

when your shine becomes goo

He’ll battle old Saul

for the right for your soul

It’s Jesus who loves you

so roll, baby, roll.

What I leave behind

 

Today I offer to the wind

my skin so thin

unsteady spine

a thought that cares

about what’s mine

A wish for love

a want for fine

 

A hug in winter

toast by fire

Today I leave

all thought

‘twould mire

I subjugate

my heart

to hire

no quarrelsome

irate

desire

(In Remembrance of Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr.)

An Entangled Winter’s Space Review

 

Fear

Friend of mine

What do you feel in me

Is it what you imagined it to be

to feel through my bones

while my breath goes shallow,

I forget what comes automatic

as I enter into the hallow

of the non-narcotic

psychedelic dream you gave to me

whose seed originated

in a winter’s icy freeze

chasing itself into my lungs,

Yellow Rays and Pink Fuzzy Breeze

I feel your hand in mine

 

And fear

 

I feel your disgrace

Your dirty fire-breathing dragon face

I’ll make a poet of you

a classy, sassy

space review

From another planet

we’ll arrive

anew

 

I’ll open up your arms

and lay claim to you

as we take the seat together

at the back of the room

I hug you

we embrace

And what is left of the rest of the race?

Life’s Loom

in peaceful resting resignation

— Resume

If You Can But Accept Me

I have never to be concerned

that I may be

or say something wrong

or fall out of favor

I was shown my power

My power shines

My Love power Lives!

Beautiful, sparkling love, I accept

I accept the rejected

the neglected

I accept and love

accept and love

You are my brothers and sisters

If you can but accept me.

Luxury

Moving into that time

when there’s nothing much more important

than holding helpless softness

strong muscles

determination against my chest;

The sleeping infant grows

with every breath.

My Coat of Many Colors

I had a vision of the butterflies again today.

There was spooky action at a distance.

They flew in a little cluster of golden flecks of energy that was simultaneously in my heart. The further away they flew, the more the flecks permeated my body, as if beamed in cellularly.

I watched them flitter across the states, to the east, on a map; the flecks of light on my body multiplied. Off the planet — more light. They traveled at light-speed by now — I was brilliant!

When they reached beyond the furthest limits, my body filled with light which emanated out instantly, bathing all things, and lighting their way.

Do You Love?

The

consciousness

you have is what

you take with you when

you go — Better do more

than say magic words and

perform praise-worthy actions.

Is your heart (spirit) overriding your Ego (flesh)?

Do you want to reach heaven (Kingdom of God Living)

 here hard enough to do the spiritual practice that brings growth?

Do you care for yourself richly while denying needy desires?

Do you realize that this may be your last

day here to show love to others?

Do you love a peaceful moment?

Will you share

the animation of your

passion for Life?

Do you

Love?